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updates part 1

2006-06-15T02:57:00.000-07:00

hooooray!!!im back!again.again.again.i miss blogging so much that i just kept on checking all my links and found out that there are some of them that i cant view.im just wondering why nor i dont even bother reading the entire pop-up message when i click those links.i just knew that i dont have the access to their blogs anymore.anyway,,,these are the highlights of what happened in my life this past few months that ive been invisible to the blogging world....

graduated last april.the feeling was overwhelming,,,really. i mean that was my no. 1 goal for the over a year and heck i was really obsessed in achieving that "finish line".it was really great when i learned that im on the list of the graduating students posted in the lobby ou my school, i immediately called my dad about the good news and boy i almost made him cry that until now he denies it but figured out with my tito that he really cried when he was informed that i was really really graduating.
my dad didnt made it to come home because of his work.so its only my mom and my tito attended my graduation rites.
at the graduation ceremony it was fun and exciting seeing tons of student wearing black togas with different colored hoods though in later part was kinda boring because of the diploma distribution for the gazillion students of letran.joseph,kim,dianne and me sneak out of the ceremony to supply nicotene in our body hehe.
oh i almost forgot to include that i scratched my digicam during baccalauriat mass.me and kim were really fooling around and running when it was the time for our batch group picture when i slipped my butt off in the stairs.as in plakda.haha.i was super embarassed that i want the floor to swallow me right then and there.
4 days before graduation we went to "tingloy"its a secluded beach in batangas.secluded here means theres no cottages&resorts,electricity, bathrooms and facilities you may find in a typical beaches in the country.so there we experienced and enjoyed buliding and staying in the tent.we cooked our own food using charcoals,dried twigs and leaves as if we were in a camping site.hehe.the beach was so great that the moment i saw it i literally jumped my ass on the water.plus the sand is sooo white its really like a cleaner version of white beach in puerto.it was really fun,fun,fun!!!and i was sooo drunk.hehe
i didnt attend my final interview in this japanese company because i went to puerto galera with lucky,anne,apple and choi.it was exactly two days after my graduation and all i want is to breathe fresh sea air..but really, all i want to do those days was to relax at least for a while,i mean i think i deserve a break after all i just came out in a world full of worries,tensions,cramming,puyat,stress and all.getting a job is really way far in my mind that moment.
i got a really flirty skirt and turqoise(is this the real spelling?im so bobo.hehe) two-piece swimsuit but also got annoyed when i saw a girl wearing the same skirt and then the next day saw another girl wearing a two-piece which is exactly the replica of my swimsuit.huhu

just got a tan!

2006-04-12T05:10:00.000-07:00

yey!im back from puerto...
lotsa fun!
had a blast!bitin nga lang coz 3 days 2 nyts lang kami....
but it was ok...
the food is great and so is the weather...
i wanna go back there sana...last week of april seems ok.hope my sked will permit me to.....:)

insane

2006-03-19T05:41:00.000-08:00

can't help but to let the tears fall whenever the topic is him.....
i think i'm goin' crazy....
when will it be me??
dammit!

blast from the past

2006-03-19T05:31:00.000-08:00

inluv part two

at last!di na ko inlove kay goatee..yey!but sumhow theres another guy who's robbing all my senses.ive been thinkin' of him 24/7.and its hard pla.i mean im getting so praning na thinking where he is right now,whos with him.okay i know im like this din before with goatee.pero this time iba tlga.maybe pareho lang sa kin when it comes sa pagiisip sa knila or being paranoid.pero i can feel the difference between how i felt about goatee before and how i feel right now.hmnnnnn....im just happy right now and i dont wanna ruin the momentum.=)

ann melody, 9:09 PM,Tuesday, March 08, 2005

community service

just got from sta. maria again.two times in a row.hah!never thought of coming back to that place again.but unfortunately have to conduct some community service there.at least for my csp.pero kei lng.good thing ive got my two friends to go with me.the long trip was so boring that i just slept all through out the long ride.pero after we made some one-on-one tutorial for the kids who were not given the chance to go to school,masaya na.i really felt good helping those children.parang i realize na im so lucky pa rin pla coz my 'rents can afford to send me to a great school pa rin unlike those children,right?at least once in a while nakakatulong ako....db?drama.hehehe.and plus today i just met him.=)

ann melody, 10:41 PM,Sunday, March 06,2005

---Just got dis from my archives while im scanning my blog.....im just checking how was my life back then....and what i found out made me even think more.....could it make any difference if could turn back time?maybe i'm not as crushed ryt now....:(

think about this...

2006-03-19T05:01:00.000-08:00

excerpts from A Warm Cup:

"i nod. Lookin' at d way u hesitate to tale my hand, resting so near yours, i know ur alreadt gone. I will make it easy for both of us, i tel myself. I will forget the feel of your hands on my skin. I will smile and tel u that i;m happy for you because that's what u want to hear, and that is what i want to believe. I will not hope you will be back soon nor say that i wish i were goin with you....Instead i will keep in mind that there is nothing between us anymore. Its just that the coffee is too warm, and i am so cold......"

huwaT?!im back------for the nth tym!wehehe

2006-03-11T03:48:00.000-08:00

haloooooooooo!!!!!!yeis im back!!!!buhay pa buhay pa ko...
hay super dami nngyari dis last few months..kulang ang isang upuan sa isang mahaba habang kwentuhan!
whirlwind romance of the year ang drama ko!
huwat????!!!ay uu super dami tlga nagyari,,,,msaya pero mas mas malungkot. anu ba yan ang gulo...getz nyo?ah basta saka na...
chineck ko lang ang account to dito at para mawelcome ulit ako sa blogging world!!!!!un nah!

yipee!!

2005-08-29T20:06:00.000-07:00

at long last.nkpag blog rin.

just got home from alabang.w/ lucky and lhen.chikahan lang.super miss ko yun,those alabang days na wla nman kaming ginagawa kundi magkwentuhan lang.syang baby gay was not there kanina.busy daw with her exams.kaartehan lang.e bkit nman ako?my sched's super overloaded na.mas grabe pa kesa dati......mejo nainarte lang ako while telling to myself that"i neeeddd a break!!!badly!!" kya eto mmya super ngarag n nman.gonna work on my pfs....

the reports due last saturday.di lang kami nkpagpass kc nga kulang pa mga data nmin. soo pass pa rin kami khit late na....kei lng yun khit ay grade deduction na.hehe...

un lang.drop by lng nman e....

long lost blogger

2005-08-01T08:58:00.000-07:00

i miss blogging sOo much....my sched for the past few weeks were so hectic.super.my world's been spinning between my business and studies.yup.studies.as in pfs.ayt.ayt....i am sOo damn busy ryt now...cant even find time to blog.or even to visit my site....huhuhu.anyway ok nman..the business is goin smooth....db sabi ko nga im gonna be a millionaire!hehe...anyway i got my first check last jul 15,first friday when i joined this"bussiness"....it felt great!super happy....met lots of interesting people there and agreeing to achieve the same goal together...like that stuff.
pfs nman.our group is doin fine...chapter 1 is complete na.ready for its deadline for friday...u see monday pa lang pero ok na.hehe.maagap lang.bka may revision e.patay na!!!but theres this thing that we should research..until now we cant decide pa rin what we're gonna use for our packaging material.LDPE ba or HDPE or LLDPE?haaaay kakaloka!actually kaya lang nkapagpost kc tinatamad na ako magresearch about our topic.....so blog muna.hehe=)

hey bkit n nman di available ang tag-board ko.dati to rin problem ng chatterbox ah!aba unti unti ng nagkakaproblema mga tagboard ngayon ah!!!bkit kayaaaa???hmnnnnn.....
greetings box:
happy bday rachelle and kim-- both my downlines...hehe!!!gud luck sa atin.were gonna make it!

2005-07-12T11:02:00.000-07:00

la lang....guto ko lang magpost kasi july na e wala pa ko post....hehe.il write a long post later.lucky u have to read it owkie.la lang kwento ko marami....about you-know-who.......hehe!

brainstorming

2005-06-28T23:19:00.000-07:00

i am so wasted this past few days....adviser hunting.may isa kc pasaway feel na feel ang pagpapahabol.and finally after a week of hunting him we got an appointment with him this afternoon...phew!we're trying to find a topic for our feasiblity study.and i tell you that its not easy as i first thought of...usually kasi its an industry-based study which means that we have to find a willing company to conduct the study first and then the they're the one who will give us the topic...but the problem is its suppose to be a topicc that deals with the manufaturing,production and the likes but ang nangyayari parang nagiging complicated and ee slash ece na ung project thats why its not going to be an industry-based study anymore.we are given the right to choose a topic first and then ska na hahanap ng company....nyek ganun din!mas pinaharapan lang kami.damn asbrang hirap pang mgahanap ng topic coz magcoconcentrate this year sa re-packaging and nawiwindang na ko sa kakaisip sa products na pwede i-repack...uhmmm toothpaste,soap,canned goods....kahit nga gas parang gusto kong ire-pack ngayon e...hahaha!!brainstorming!!!wait lng bka maghang ang utak ko....hehe ayt lucky...sheyt!klangan ko na muna magre-boot hahaha.....

lucky,lhen and me met edwin and jeff last monday sa greenbelt.syang me-anne was not there.may pasok ka sya that day..it was fun.we talked non stop about anything..it so fun talking with him kc he really listens to what i am saying.anyway speaking of lucky she txted me yesterday and she told me na di na ngay tuloy mag-apply as a call center agent....y oh y?becOooz tuloy na sila sa yondon!!!hehe ala vincent!may sked na sya for an interview.....actually sbi nya tuloy na nga daw,,,how i wish nga matuloy na sila.wow im soo happy for you dude!!!wtch out yondon!on the way na ang isang pentium 2 dyan...hahaha!!!and hirs me-ann she told me rin yesterday that he asked jelo back...and they agreed to have an open relationship.haaa!open rel?does it work pa ba ngayon?i caaant believe that she really did it.i mean after all the mournings that she'd been through.nkapag suffer na sya ng sbra and in one click ala na....start from scratch n nman sya sa pain.bala cya. tsk tsk.martyrdom.once they called me din as martyr.i exactly knew how does it feel to loove someone that much.kaya nga im so annoyed with her kasi ako nget over ko na yung ganung feelings e bkit sya di nya kaya....e i knew nman na she can do it din.i know its not my business anymore e how can i stand nman to see her like that e alam kong ayaw n tlga sa kanya ni jelo.nakukulitan na siguro.hayyyy!!mary anne......move on!u have to make a comment about this post ok!its a must!check ur blog asap....

nyway...while typing this post e medyo nagsesearch di ako about the topic.pero medyo lang.and guess what?di na pwede yung proposed topic nmin......meron ng ganung product sa states.so hndi na pwede un coz it should be original nga daw!actually naisip ko na rin na meron ng ganung product sa states but in denial lang ako kasi gusto ko n nga yung topic na yun and when i checked it in the net shoot! meron na nga!may gawd!!!kaloka!!!anu na lang product ala ang america ha?anu pa?anu pa?another brainstorming na nman...........

they're engaged!

2005-06-20T20:19:00.000-07:00

i just heard it from the news.tom proposed marriage to katie.even she is 16 yrs his junior that doesnt stop them from being together.and now they're engaged!before i didnt believe about the rumors that they're together na nga.but now...oh my god!!!!it is sooo true. i just wished mgtagal sila(a little sarcasm hir) coz well its not like its his first time to get married ayt?!but still tom cruise is tom cruise.she's soo damn lucky.so wish ko lang tlga....haha!!!grabe gossip girl!la lang....

anyway..it been so long since my last post.nothings new nman.im just happy coz after all the struggles last summer eventually nakuha ko na rin pfs ko....sumthing na di ko ineexpect!and it felt great!!!!wohOooo!!!ggraduate ako dis march!!!!ok a little exaggarated hir!hayyyy sana!kaya busy busyhan ako ngayon.feeling ngarag kahit wla pa nmang iniisip about the thesis.even di pa ngsstart thesis mode na agad ang feeling...hehe!!!sherryl and ruel are my groupmates kaya it'll be a total fun working with them!!!!the advisers are ok na.actually kami lang ang dlawa yung adviser.lhat isa lang.wla lng ako lang nkaisip na mag dlawa.para msaya,,laki nga ng babayaran nmin.e....feeling myaman kami tatlo.hehe...kwento ulit ako about our thesis nxt tym,,,

and now im an official member of legacy.last monday ako nkapagpagpay in.and im so glad na im part of the business na...i know nman na i dont have nothing to loose when i decided to let out the money in my pocket eh....you have to risk sumthing for you to achieve what you wanna cahieve ayt!and feeling ko ha!as in feeling ko lang nman e.....eto na yung first step ko about my goal.kasi im too tired of all the people saying "hey you have to dream big!" and so ako nman i kept on dreaming,dreaming and dreaming...hanggang don n lang so i have to take the risk and let it happen.....watch out im gonna be a millionaire!!!hehe....owkayyyyy i really really mean it!!!
im in a hurry while typing this coz i have a class to attend pa....so im going to make another entry later about what happened when we were in makati last monday......gotta go!!!

2005-06-04T20:17:00.000-07:00

im so happy.....may pfs na ko!yey!im soooo excited.il make long story about it....il have to do some stuffs=)

2005-05-28T14:29:00.000-07:00

summer's over
Summer class over just last tue…hay!sarap ng feeling…and I spent my time sleeping and sleeping and sleeping para medyo mkabawi nman for those puyatan and cramming nights.that's why ngayon lng ako nkpagpost since last last week.what the heck!comcard giving na this coming Monday and im scared as hell!ngiiii……what if bagsak ako?patay tlga!kwento ko na lang whats gonna happen this coming Monday
bye acy&angel
So sad….magtratransfer na si acy and angel this sem.huhu...mamimiss ko sila.actually last year pa sa amin bino-brought up ni angel yung topic about her transferring to another school.pero dedma nman kami kasi alam ko kaartehan nya lang yun.but now,totohanan n tlga and unfortunately kasama pa si acy.kakalungkot kasi acy's one of my closest friend in college and we've been together since our 1st year.blockmate,seatmate,kaharutan,kachikahan….evything.everytime I'll hear brian mcknight's "win"..i always think of acy coz that's our theme song when we were in our freshmen year.we always said that we're not going to give up but……=( pero alam ko its for her own good na rin to tranfer to another school.si angel din I think ok na rin yun at least may assurance na sila for themselves about…..hmnnn.basta I know its for their own good.and next sem it's going to me ,Sheryl and prices na lang….oh my gawd!this is it!we're stuck!matira matibay na lang…..ngii kakatakot!!
end of the cold war
Yey! bati na rin kami ni Erwin…he's a really really good friend of mine.we had this simple misunderstanding kasi last march pa.and since nun di na kami ngapansinan as in dedmahan kung dedmahan..e mataas ang pride.so that time I felt that kung di nya ko kakausapin bkit ko sya kakausapin ayt?immature.yeah.pero I realize na mhirap din coz he's really close to me and we belong to the same barkada. everytime may gimik or happenings brkada ko totally walng pansinan tlga as if all the years we shared together as friends just blew off like that.and one day nagiisip ako kung sino ittxt ko and then bgla ko na lang sya naalala ang tnxt ko sya ng qtz.i waited for his reply pero sbrang tgal that I finally made up my mind na binawalewala nya lang yung effort ko para mkipagabti sa kanya.but nagreply sya and that was it!ok na lhat simple exchange of apologies and ok n lhat just like before….i realize then that it was ok lang pla na lunikin yung pride mo minsan if it means sumthing important to you…and im not ashamed of doing that so.i know it was the right thing to do then…and it felt wonderful!my old friend's back!!!!!

went to alabang town center last Wednesday.lucky,winmar and donna were with me.sbra kasi pagcracrave nmin ni lucky sa ice monster this past few days.meet lng pati nmin si riza and si cara sa starbucks e kasama nman ni riza yung sister nya and yung bf nung sister nya….after nun diretso kami sa hse ni Jason..bday nya kasi that day so we had our dinner there.then dumating din si daven and then yun isang npkahabang chismisan ktapat ng san mig!pero di ako msyado uminom!I'm so proud of myself!di ako umuwing bangenge…haha!!!

to cut or not to cut
Until now,i cant decide whether to cut my hair or not.sbrang dami na kasing split ends.nkakainis.anu ba yan pati split ends sinabi pa.hehehe.naisip ko lang kasi na if ill cut it this end of may ganun din yun pag haba may split ends pa rin.e sbrang tgal ko nang nagpapahaba ng hair.sguro mga one and a half year na.and wala pa ring pagbabago shoulder length pa rin lagi gawa nga ng split ends.i keep on having my hair trimmed kasi every month so lagi rin ganun yung length nya kahit magptrim ako ng magpa trim...ksi nga split ends!so I think if im not going to trim it this time.ok lang na pnay split ends sya for now at least hahaba nman ska ko na lang papaalis yung mga split ends...hay anung gagawin ko?hay npaka senseless...

Happy bday to:

Peachy poo---hey di ka pa nagrereply.hmp.blita ko asa Chicago ngayon si Richard mo ah!!!miss u gurl...u have to reply soon owki!
Jason---kelan treat mo sa Puerto?lolz
Che-miss u a lot gurl....
Cyn-im not hearin’ a lot from you....pakita ka nman!!!

random thoughts

2005-05-13T14:08:00.000-07:00

sbrang ngarag ako dis past few days.....lagi ala tulog.e kasi lagi din may exam.kung alang exam.assignment nman,,malamang sa skul ko rin gingawa yun kaya maaga din ako dpat sa skul kya maaga rin dpat ako gigising.lagi na hirap makatulog maaga pa magigising.sbrang init init pa..see?snong hindi mangangarag db?good thing medyo sulit yung pagpupuyat ko kagabi kc feeling ko.as in mlakas ang feeling ko na tama ako dun sa dalawang problem...haha!naisahan ko din si master mg.mg stands for memory gap.e kasi lagi nmin ginagawang laughing stuff yun nila maan.asa front row pa nman kami kaya pag umatake n nman pagka mg nun....ayayay laught trip na nman.shushungak kasi.tanda tanda na ayaw pang magresign.ngii ang sama ko.hmp kei lang.bakit ba?e pag nawala sya makakgraduate nman ako.kei nang maging masama...haha!pero ders dis hot news na di sya tcher nmin sa o.r 2 nxt sem.kei na sana e mukang ssblay n nman ako ngayon sa o.r1...damn di pwedeeeee.....huhu.kakaawa ako pag nangyari yun.iba pa magiging classmate ko.....tpos kanina wala kaming m.i.s kasi quiz nmin e kami yung nagreport last tym kaya its ok na wag kaming magquiz.hmnnnnnnn 88 yta ako dun sa oral report ko khit nandaya lang ako sa pagrereport.hehe panay search ko lang sa net yun...hehe....ang saya=)

e naiinis pa ko kasi kung alam ko lng na di matutuloy yung quiz nmin sa systems last tue dpat sumama ulit ako sa lago.kasi nman nagtxt si lucky 1130 na yta yun.ayun naiinggit lang ako kasi nagwakeboarding ulit sila...as usual kasma n nman nila si hermanuelito.actually he's really nice tlga.good conversationalist.and he also know how to listen too....may pagkaidealistic nga lang...kaya mejo ang cool ng converasation nmin while we were on ou way to lago...para kaming nagdedebate...hehe.and pati kung pano naging hermanuelito name nya.ikinuwento pa.o db astig?

nyway..buti pa si baby gay may work na.na-assign sya sa ticket booth sa e.k. ok na sana kaya lang lagi nman nkatayo as in the hul day nkatayo lang sya.pero kei lang at least now shes learning how to earn her own money.plus di na sya bum...may life na sya...unlike before na sbrang literal na baboy.haha.kain tulog.di n nga nmin sya nkikita e.kasi usually every night kami nakikita ng mga friends ko.e hanggang 10 yung work nya so wala di na rin nmin sya nakkita...pero she txted me kanina and she said na maaga sya uuwi tonight...and magpapaseo nga pla kami mmya nila lucky.treat daw ni chris....yipeee...can't wait!so im gonna sleep muna para medyo full batt nman me later......pati sbrang sleepy na ko.kasi lang to si lucky niyaya lang ako den i decided to do na rin may research work in m.i.s.....which is ok na!kei.gotta go.buhbye=p

so fed up

2005-05-07T02:25:00.000-07:00

tingnan ko lang yung blog nung friend ko and theres dis one entry that she posted...its entitled "what hurts you the most" and sbrang daming conditions or situations dun...pero theres this short phrase na sbrang napaisip ako....

.... losing someone you never had from the start =(

this may sounds cliche pero it made me utter "ay shit!"..i know sbrang long overdue na 'to pero sumhow it made me realize pa rin na unconciously im still thinkin of him pa rin.di na nga lang ganun ka-intense unlike before na as in 24/7 sya tlga iniisip ko.i told myself kasi before na basta mgkatxt kami ok na..and then yun nga nagtxt sya and it just happened.the realization that i could never expect anything...so sad.and then weeks later ok na ako i mean i had fun whenever i was with my friends.i admit sbrang nkakafed up na to wait for sumone and then in the end you will end up getting hurt lang.parang binigay mo naman yung best mo.pag sinabi nyang maghintay ka.sure ur willing to wait.pag sinabi nyang kei lang kahit ganto situation nyo kei lang syo.kahit sbrang hassles both parts.ur willing to take all the risks db?pero still in the end...u end up being a loser....shit mga assholes!
dati sguro eto yung nafefeel ko pero good thing nbalance na ulit after me being attached with him.well im doing just fine....yeah im still waiting for someone but not too desperate katulad ng dati na almost every night me and my friends will talk about all those mushy things.nkakasawa na rin tlga.parang ngayon ok na ako ngayon kung wala ok lang din kung meron....at least ngayon balance na ulit yung feelings ko...

no more wishing,no more sleepless nights,dreamer?......not!

shit happens

2005-05-04T03:55:00.000-07:00

bad day....i was really dissapointed when i got my testpaper kanina.i mean i'm expecting kasi na i'll pass that one although kinuha nung prof ko yung paper ko and nung classmate ko ng maaga kc nga he caught us na pinapakopya ko yung friend ko.so kahit ganun yung nagyari i still have hope pa rin na he will still be considerate pa rin with us. i dnt know pero i have a feeling na di nya tlga kami actually nahuli...fuck.in denial pa rin till the end.so nagexpect tlga ako...kasi nman out of four problems i answered the three problems right.so i felt bad tlga when i got my paper and it was marked with capital letter c.meaning copied...........shit!im not mad with my friend im not even annoyed with her.kasi when i let her see my work.nandun na yung risk na my prof might see us.pero i choose to do it pa rin and besides last quiz nmin ako nman kumopya sa kanya e....so kei lng.i just need to pass my midterm exams dis coming fri.grrrr by hook or by crook i have to pass it.dammit!

=super=

2005-04-26T16:40:00.000-07:00

wakeboarding ako with my friends yesterday...super late na nga lang kami.around 2 na cguro kami nakarating....but kei lang.new experience.adventure.super fun.feeling ko nga eto na "calling " ko...haha(ayt lucky?)basta i had fun tlga.......and we were with lhen pa.at first i was really hesitant tlga to try it.pero ayun nabully ako ng friends ko at ako pa ang pinauna sa line huh?!e as in wala tlga akong idea...bsta in-orient lang kami ng konti nung bro ng bf ni lhen.and that was it....sbarang saya tlga coz first time ko and then super layo na agad ako....yey.super laugh trip kasi sbrang plakda tlga si lucky and si anne....haha!!!sbrang nkakahiya coz nadun sila diet,kristine and other artista.kei lang yung place but my goodness sbrang layo lang tlga.pero kei lng all our pagkainip along the journey was all sulit....=P

summer queens here....lolz.chillin out after a lOoong walk from the lake

anne,lucky and me here with diet.....

wakeboarding with echo.he's so mabait .he didnt even laugh when he saw all our plakda moments.hehe

yey!!!!

2005-04-24T23:24:00.000-07:00

just got home from donna's house.may small party kasi gumraduate na sya so nadun din yung mga high school friends ko and it was super fun meeting your old friends.some of them kasi almost four months ko din di nakita so it’s a good thing din na nagkita kita kami kanina.just like the old days….hay buti pa si dons graduate na.she’s now ready to step into the real world…di ko rin sya natiis sa huli actually kasi I told myself na di ako aatend sa kahit kaninong graduation party.as in kahit kanino.kasi nman magseself pity lang ako noh,maiingit.wala pa kasi tlgang assurance na ggraduate na ko e…I mean siguro mga two years pa.minimum pa yun .sbrang nppressure na tlga ako.reason?parents ko.and it’s so irritating.parang hello kayo lang ba ang gustong makagraduate ako noh?eh di lalo na ko db?!and then theres my bwisit na teacher pa.sus klan ba kasi matatanggal yun sa e.hmp.kung di dahil sa kanya dpat graduating na ko next year.i really regret na eto pa kinuhang course ko.and if theres someone that would seek for my advice on what course they should take up…ngayon tlga sbrang naniniwala na ko na kung ano yung gusto mong gawin or what things that would make you happy and then go!e pano ko nman kasi gagawin yun dati e di ko nman din alam yung mga things that would make me happy or what field im so into…all i care then was mkasama friends ko….basta kung san masaya…ayan wla tuloy mangyari sa buhay ko!wtf!kei so much of this drama thing…naiiyak na ko..

buti na lang we’re going to calatagan tom.wakeboarding this time!yey!and this time lhen will be joining us at last.sbrang dami nyang namiss sa mga summer escapdes nmin..haha!lately kasi di sya nkakasama kasi may work sya so lagi na lang kaming tatlo nila lucky and anne ang mgkakasama…e nagiinarte sya kahpon so she have to skip her work muna tom para she could join us besides ako din nman di aatend ng class ko tom.so quits lang=)hayyyyyy can’t wait!!!lago de oro here we come!anyway kahit super excited me about tom im kinda scared din kasii nman water spots n nman yun e dun nga sa banana ride sbrang panic na ko e….owkay!!!I admit I really dnt know how to swim kya mdy nagwworry di ako abou what goin’ tp happen tom…hmn..bhala na tom!bsta dpat msya tom=)ill make kwento na lang about it tom….

2005-04-19T14:17:00.000-07:00

clowning around.....killing boredom!obvious ba!hahaha.....sbrang ala magawa!

we had a blast!

2005-04-18T23:47:00.000-07:00

lucky,anne and me....feeling beach hotties...haha!!!

lucky and anne on our way to puerto

sa bus..bonding moments=P

with lucky and the hammock.....awwww

anne and me sa hammock ulit

senti sentihan.....hahaha

much better=)

2005-04-17T09:51:00.000-07:00

Im feeling much better right now.i really never expected that he would txt me pa but he did.im hanging out with lucky,anne and choi when he txted me and I cant believe it tlga.all my wishes were granted.our conversation through txt was smooth and how I wished that night would never end.i could feel that he doesn’t really like me.well,alam ko n nman yun from the start but I dnt know that it would be that painful pa rin to feel his rejection although not directly na ni-reject nya ako.pero still he doesn’t like me.truth hurts. i also found out that he have a gf right now although di na ko masyado nasurprise.as expected duh! he was so straight that he clarify things that he couldn’t offer me anything.as in no strings attached.pero at least the only consolation was naisip nya pa rin ako ayt?yun lang nman gusto ko.souds so stupid and mababaw pero I swear that’s all I wanted…magktxt kami after that playful night.honestly I do feel better right now.di pa kc masydo nagsisink in sa akin before that im expecting nothing.but now,slap on my face.im just one of those girls trapped by his player moves. he was in puerto that night and I knew that was the only time he could txt me coz puerto’s such a place far from reality.owkay...far from his girl.that’s the place one can believe everything.place for all dreamers.and sadly I was one of those who believe those dreams…. I was so damn stranded and I cant find the way which will lead my life back to normal…..but I think im getting there I swear mga three to four days na lng….hahaha=)actually we’re planning of going back to Puerto nga e…para daw mapalitan yung memories.haha..si lucky hay grabe.this is her lowest point of her life na yta…haha.kei lang.ive been there din nman so alam ko na yung feeling.anne’s kinda depressed din about tawty.pero at least may hinihintay pa sya since asa china ngayon si tawty.we really needed to go back to puerto na nga ata.time to unwind(haha…kapal!)….yuck!im getting so praning just because of that hammock thingy and to think na at the age of 20 ako nagkakaganito……yuckness!!!promise it will be over din….pretty soon=)

goodbye puertow

2005-04-13T23:58:00.000-07:00

again...im getting so praning.ive been thinking of him all day.all night.and it really sucks.i mean i never expected that i will feel the way im feeling right now..when we were on our way to puerto i kinda wished that i could forget LB even just for one day.owkay wish granted but may pumalit naman....never as in never did i expect that i could easily attached with him.i really thought that i was already brave enough to handle those things.and i assumed that madali lang.but i was so wrong.from the very start i told myself that hanggang dun lang tlaga and even warn myself that i should not involve myself deeply.but still...i cant help it.sbrang tanga ko.such a player.shit...i dnt even know jow to play games and yet i just let it happen in just a couple of minutes.fuck!fuck! fuck!!@#*

ouch

2005-04-11T20:17:00.000-07:00

hayyyy sbrang sakit ng katawan ko.....grabe its not only me lang pla...si lucky and si baby gay din.oh hi baby gay!!!hehe.peace out.i dnt know siguro its because of the banana ride last sat.need to go to school.i have to finish some important things.sbrang npaka unusual na sbrang liit lang ng mga entry ko pero i swear gagawa tlga me ng mhaba next tym.kakatamad lang ksi plus i really need to go.......next tym ulit.

puerto:)

2005-04-10T19:08:00.000-07:00

just got home from puerto.super fun kahit sbrang daming hassles up to the last minute.bonding moments with lucky and anne:p as we said before plus points na lang if we could meet some friends there and what i mean was...uhmmm boys...hehe:)and ayun we met some boys there and it was fun tlga.exciting.another memories of puerto.....wink*wink*.im so sleepy but tinry ko tlga to post an entry kahit sbrang groggy na ko....ill make long kwento na lang ulit next tym.my bed's waiting for me.....:p

homp!

2005-04-06T19:14:00.000-07:00

bagsak ako sa O.R.waahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!hmp nasermonan pa:(

certified bum

2005-03-19T21:48:00.000-08:00

im kinda annoyed coz schools over na.no im not a nerd or something to luv school just like that.at least when im at school i can hang out with people and have chitchats with them.laughtrip.everything.plus may allowance pa.unlike here at home i dont have anything to do.i dont hve any money.its so boring.as in im such a bum.cant believe i have to stay here for 2 weeks pa.oh my.buti na lng lucky.anne and me were planning dis trip next next week.if we insisted kasi na dis week for sure hassle pa coz holy week's kinda near na so better set it after holy week instead.but its okay na rin.at least may life na.cant wait to wear our little tankinis'...wohoooooo!!!!

whoa,whoa i think im falling.........

2005-03-11T23:13:00.000-08:00

Could I be falling for you
Is this a fantasy come true
Is this a dream that I've waited for
Am I the one that you adore
Whoa, whoa I think I'm falling for you
Whoa, whoa, whoa What am I supposed to do
'Cause you make me feel Like I'm falling in love (am I falling for you)
Could it be love
Tell me boy Is it true,
I get a rush when I think about you
Lose Control
From my body and my soul
And when you hold me
I don't want to let go (You give me reason) you give me reason
Every reason just to
Love you babe (babe)
Everything that you do Is so amazing
I can't believe what Your body makes me wanna do I
'm having visions
Of me all over you
You must have known though
I try to disguise
The way I feel was there fire in my eye
On that night when our bodies intertwined
I knew right there and then that you will be mine
Could I be falling for you
Is this a fantasy come true
Is this a dream that I've waited for Am I the one that you adore (adore, tell me)
Whoa, whoa I think I'm falling for you (falling for you)
Whoa, whoa, whoa, What am I supposed to do (what am I supposed to do)
'Cause you make me feel Like I'm falling for you (falling for you)
Every day You seem to find a way to make me go crazy
I just can't understand but let me tell you one thing
You make me wanna sing

inluv part two

2005-03-08T21:09:00.000-08:00

at last!di na ko inlove kay goatee..yey!but sumhow theres another guy who's robbing all my senses.ive been thinkin' of him 24/7.and its hard pla.i mean im getting so praning na thinking where he is right now,whos with him.okay i know im like this din before with goatee.pero this time iba tlga.maybe pareho lang sa kin when it comes sa pagiisip sa knila or being paranoid.pero i can feel the difference between how i felt about goatee before and how i feel right now.hmnnnnn....im just happy right now and i dont wanna ruin the momentum.=)

community service

2005-03-06T22:41:00.000-08:00

just got from sta. maria again.two times in a row.hah!never thought of coming back to that place again.but unfortunately have to conduct some community service there.at least for my csp.pero kei lng.good thing ive got my two friends to go with me.the long trip was so boring that i just slept all through out the long ride.pero after we made some one-on-one tutorial for the kids who were not given the chance to go to school,masaya na.i really felt good helping those children.parang i realize na im so lucky pa rin pla coz my 'rents can afford to send me to a great school pa rin unlike those children,right?at least once in a while nakakatulong ako....db?drama.hehehe.and plus today i just met him.=)

yey!

2005-03-05T20:35:00.000-08:00

la lng.im happy kc di ko na masyado na iicp si goatee...minsan may spark.minsan ala.it only means na di ganun ka-intense feeling ko right now.wohooo.at least im starting to be happy na ulit.=)

wat about......

2005-03-01T23:26:00.000-08:00

wat about love?
wat abot the feelin?
wat about all the things that made life's worth keepin'
wat about trust?
wat about faith?
and tell me baby wat about us?

la lng...ganda lng g lyrics.hmnnnn......feel ko.hehehe=)
its judith's bday.
happy bday po....muahaaa...miss you gurl=)

killing boredom

2005-02-16T20:08:00.000-08:00

im so bored i had to answer all is stuff jst to kill time.im waiting for lucky kasi.she said that she would text me na lng if shes prepared to go na.....anyway here it is:

*Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
-> water,softdrinks,lemonade&four seasons
*What's In Your CD Player? -> personalized cd
*What's Under Your Bed? -> lots of magazines
*Whats Under Your Pillows? nothing
*What Time Did You Wake Up Today? -> 10:30
*Current Hair? -> shoulder level pa rin.hmp
*Current Desktop Picture? -> cast of one tree hill...(yey!)
*Current Worry ? -> application letter ko due tom..(.i still dont have one)
*Current Hate? -> gf ni .....hahaha.ang mean ko
*Least Favorite Place? -> ala nman.so far
*If You Could Play An Instrument? -> guitar...
*Favorite Color/s? ->white and pink
*Current Favorite Word/s? -> loves it!
*Favorite expression? -> coolness
*Favorite Day? -> monday
*Where Would You Like To Go? -> bora or siargao...just to learn how to surf
*Where Do you want to live when you got married?-->anywhere,as long as im with my hubby(aww...)
*Favorite food? -> pizza
*Color of most clothes you own: -> white, pink,brown
*Number of pillows you sleep w/? ->3
*What do you wear when you go to sleep? -> pjs
*What were you doing 12AM last night: ->watching sex and the ciy
*How old will you be in 10 yrs: ->30
*What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years: -working.i guess
*Are you paranoid?! -> yeah.kind of
*Your alarm clock? -> cellphone...
* memory of something? -> huh?
*Last library book checked out? -> sum textbook for this particular subject
*Last thing you ate? ->baked mac
*Last annoyance? -->my mom
*Last thing you wrote? -> outline of my resume
*Last words spoken? -> kei lng un...
*Who is your favorite sesame street character? -oscar the grouch&cookie monster
*Are you happy with your life? -> im trying to be..
*Who would you take to that island if you had to take anyone, dead or alive?: ->lucky
*Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you? -> yeah...

total blast

2005-02-14T23:36:00.000-08:00

just got home from alabang.spent my vday at atc with lucky.we just had our coffee and met anne.she was with her friend john and we just enjoyed the day talking about everything and oh laughing.even we dont have our partners beside us,still we managed to have fun and enjoyed the day without thinking that it was vday nga pla.we noticed too that not so many couples are there usually people were with their friends if not with their family.so we do not feel the pressure of not having special someone with us.its as if all my kapraningan days ago just vanished when i was out spending my days with my friends.i realized that even lucky called vday as "single awareness day" i and yeah lucky too can still be happy pa rin.we even received a flower from the resto where we had our dinner and i was like 'oh my god!i got a flower!i got a flower!'...hehe.it sounds mababaw pero at least i didnt went home and felt that i was such a loser.i still got my pink flower.wink*wink*

luvsick=(

2005-02-12T23:16:00.000-08:00

this week was soo bad for me.it was my midterm week but kahit isa wala akong nakuhang exam.my first exam was supposedly last tuesday but my prof forgot to gave us an exam.next subject?!ee..she was so late my classmate decided to leave the classroom na.so that day was just wasted.then last thursday sheryl,angel and me went to school coz we thought our prof might reschedule the exam that day.just to be sure.but he did not.he rescheduled the exam next week.okaaaay!i just wasted my day for nothing.again.friday,it was company day for me.and we needed to conduct some studies in a particular section there.and guess what?all our works just wasted.again.result?we need to come back there and conduct our study next week.such a damn week.its all screaming WASTED!

im so sick.until now i have terrible condition of colds.i cant even taste anything i eat.i have to ask my friends what does the food taste just to satisfy myself.i just chew all my foods without me tasting it.its sOo hard.cant sleep.headache.cant take my "oxygen" well.plus i feelim so "ngo-ngo" eveytime i speak...i think i should take a lots of rest na muna.
nyway,i can really feel the pressure of valentines day.all the radio stations been playing all those mushy songs.all the stores na punthan ko have these tiny hearts either hanging or posted in their glass panels.tv programs been preparing their own gimmicks due to v-day..and heck even in commercials!im not really an anti-vday but it so happen that i dont have the right to be excited and be happy coz vday is coming na.im single.yeah.thats why.but hey i used to celebrate vday din nman.but that was two years ago.hayyyyy!and thats the thing i really miss.being with sumbody pag vday.ive read it for the nth time in all those teen mag that evryone can still celebrate valentines day.as in evryone.even single girls like me.in their own special way.but db nman?!when we say valentines,the first thing that pops in our head is sumone special,significant other,in short our loved ones.and thats also one thing which i do not have right now.maybe natritrigger lang tlga ko coz i can really feel the pressureof being single coz valentines kinda near n nga.oh god! parang sbrang bitter ko.nah.im just sad actually even dati pa i already feel this way.im so happy nman with my life right now.family.friends.but cyempre nman there are tyms din that i feel the emptiness.im only human though.who would like the idea of bumming around here in front of a pc instead of going in baywalk and kiss your bf.i just missed the feeling of being inluv and being luvd.how many times did i told myself that i feel na i love goatee na rin at last.pero di rin pala e.i kinda like him.but definitely not luv.hmnn ewan ko rin.unexplainable.see i didnt think of him much often na comapred dati.yuck.parang dati lang im so crazy over him.hmn kaartehan ko lng yta yun.bsta.even me sometimes i cant really understand myself.there are timesthat i want to stay this way.there are times nman na im feeling sad and theres nothing i can do but to wish that one day my solumate and me will meet our paths.i totally believe in that things.oh my!im a really sucker for luv.and i cant help it.okay soo much of this luv thingy.it makes me sick much more.maybe i should spend may vday n lng with my friends going out or having a lunch date and a dinner date with my family.no watching mushy films.cheesy songs.ill just watch a horror flick instead.hehehe.and ill have to plan a badminton rematch with lucky so at least i cant feel that its valentines day.hmnnnnn.yeah right.it might help.

last fri when i was preparing myself i was able to watch gma's unang hirit andthere i watch the heavy traffic from a. bonifacio yta to the toll gate of the higway.and they also reported thatt he reason why its traffic was the instant increase of toll fee.and the increased rate reach up to i think 300%.imagine that?so all the motorists kept asking why it increased that much and it made an average of two minutes in asking why did it raised that much.and they answered that they didnt raise the toll fee since 1993.such a lame answer.maybe thats why they produced that particular commercial where a guy saying that it ok for him that much coz he can see nman the improvement.i got their point in increasing the toll fee coz in fairness you can see nman tlaga the improvement plus their service is good what i didnt get is why they raised it that much?what if im only going for example in bulacan or to the nearest exit from the starting point of the highway?meaning,im also going to pay that much?no way!its just not fair!and knino nman mapupunta yung pera?another polician's pocket?!thats the bad thing about the people behind those project.not only they steal almost half or three fourths of the budget for the project.they made the public to see the improvement and all those things that did daw.they advertised it.and the bottom line is they just make money out from it.they are just soO good in fooling people.sobrang corrupt.well its only in the philippines.what can i say?!tsk..tsk!nuff' said!

i fooled around too long

2005-01-31T01:14:00.000-08:00

i just feel bad.he’s married na pala..i’m not in the mood to explain how i knew it.maybe sum other tym.theres only one dominant emotion i’m feeling right now.i’m hurting.it was knowing i’ve lost him before i knew that hurt me more.and i felt that i was the dumbest person in the world for letting myself hope that someday we could end up together,someday it could be the two of us.all along....i found the right guy,it was the perfect tym.everything was just so perfect except for one thing:for him i wasn’t the perfect girl and i wasn’t even close to being the right one………sigh=(

day one:he txted me

2005-01-27T19:14:00.000-08:00

hey im back!!after two or three weeks of not posting an entry...here i am n nman.finally i could make kwento na rin.actually im always surfin the net din nman but i dnt have the time to have entry pa.the only thing i could do was check my friendster and my myspace account.ive been busy kasi dis past few weeks...studies.(o db?!feeling good girl)but its true nman.....quizzes,reports,company-hunting,MTS and a pile of homeworks....arghhhh!!!i felt so exhausted tlga dis past few weeks.ayos lang sana if i was able to pass the exams...but hell!even if i stayed late at night studying in this particular subject.i failed pa rin in two consecutive quizz i took last week.i really felt so bobo.but hey im not the only one who got red ink on the paper noh!everyone of us knew dat the problem was not with us,but indeed in our prof.yeah now im blaming our proff nman.eh totoo nman noh!he's so conceited,inconsiderate,feeling-know- it-all beast!gosh im so mean tlga nyway im just telling the truth lang nman,and hey its my right to jot down all my thoughts,feelings and own opinion in just everything....this is my blog.and whoever might not agree me.they can back off.
last week my mom gave her permission to me so i could bring the car with me na rin at last.it was all going sooo smooth.i thought pa nga of making pa-bibo to my mom so she could always permit me na to bring the car with me.i was planning to go home early para good shot na rin.im on my way home na with acy when i started to felt that the break was getting pretty hard na.i didnt mind it pa nga and make kwento pa to acy about the previous problem of the car.and then the arrow of the temperature gauge pointed at letter h.meaning hot.ayayay overheat!i was in panic tlga.acy could prove that.hehehe...we're like two idiot girls dressed in school uniform and we dont even know how to do a single thing on what happened.we felt sOoo helpless.i didnt called my mom yet cause i know magpapanic din sya as much as i do.i called her when everthings alright na and told him dat wer in the gasoline station.haayyyy all my plans vanished in just a snap.it was the first time i brought the car and nasiraan pa ako...im really frustrated that night.i even plan of making pabibo pa nman.....maybe its not really meant for me to bring that fucking car..grr!!
Now my mom didnt said a thing to me...i expect her pa nman to make some lOong-sermon to me for not taking care of the car.but its not really my fault nman.so now the car was in the talyer and the people there have been starting to make butingting in the car..hehe!!!ok so much of the car issue...i know nman that i can bring it to school pa rin coz i didnt had the courage to lie about the condition of the car.i can easily bring that home without my mom realizing that the car was in bad condition.talking about Goooood Karma.......
and now i have these really uber-cute kwento that even i cant really define the mix emotion im feeling right now.as i've said my moms gonna let me to bring pa rin the car and i told her that my class til' 5:30 lang but the truth was its till 8:30 pa.anyway its ok coz ive been planning na rin to skip my last class to watch one tree hill coz i won't be able to catch the replay episode this coming saturday coz im going to sta. maria for my immersion.hah!this is another thing until now keeps bugging me. with the thought of me and acy going in this ultra rural area in laguna keeps haunting me.what if theres no electricity there?what if theres no tv?what if the house we are going to stay for three days have these not-so-comfortable-comfort room?what if theres no cell site there?nyak...i have so many demands noh!watcha think?hehe so much of that imerssion.back to my kwento.so i went home early with acy and with her beau who's my also friend.we ate pa nga in tudings...coz i cant resist of not having their mouthwatering porkcop(yum!)in a week.and then when i got home..thank god i arrive at home so perfectly coz its not yet one tree hill and di pumalpak yung auto.hehehe.i made utos to our househelp pa to make lemnonade for me.im soo comfortable and oh so busy watching one tree hill when all of a sudden my fone beeped.i didnt paid any attention to my fne coz im so busy drooling over chad michael murray!oh god!he really really rocks my world now!i think that he's the cutest man on earth alive...hehehe.and he has goatee rin!kilig(yey!)its commercial break na when i checked my fne and found out that the message was from HIM(yeah!exactly!the guy ive been telling to you guys)i was stunned!suddenly i didnt paid any attention to the program i eveeerr love when it resumed from a commercial break.i didnt know how ami going to reply.i also thought that maybe it wasnt really him who texted me tlag.i thought maybe one of my friends been joking me and pretending that it was him.so i just replied:nyek?(his name) ka dyan!....i dnt really think nman tlga that it was him.so i just played safe..then minutes afterprinces txted me and she said that:melo i think goatee(my codename to him) will txt you.i was stunned again.oh my gawd as in oh my gawd!!!!!!!!!so it means sya tlga yun!ayayay!it turned out that my guy friend ruel did some laglag to me when i skipped this class whom me,princes,ruel...and goatee are classmates!!!what the fuck!di nya dpat mlaman number ko whaaaaaaa....rem when i used to text him and he got pissed off!?!shit!by now he already knew that im the one who txted him last xmas....nyiiii!!!kakahiya!!!and because of that stupid book my friend sheryl and me found last tuesday in that same class i skipped he may found that it was me!!!my god!i dnt know if i'll feel overwhwlmed because at last..all my wishes are granted na rin coz he texted me na rin at last.but my god like ive said..di nya dpat mlaman dat it was me.karma.and now its a bad one.dpat di n lng nmin kc kinuha yung book.a letter for a company pla wasinserted in one of the pages of that book and we only found that last fri.we already know na that the book belongs to him but we decided not to give it back to him coz its so nkakahiya na nga.who would have thought ba na he's going make hanap his book pa.and since we're not present in the class my guy friend told him that we found his book(he didnt know that i txted him last xmas thats why he told goatee that.so when we confronted him.he was excused).arghhhhhhh i think im gonna die..
buti na lng the conversation(through text) me and goatee was so light...as if he didnt found out that it was me nga.nyway its not the same number na ginamit nya when he txted me and the one stored in my fnebook(w/c was the number w/c i txted last xmas.)haha...good for me...buti na lang..im making sum pacute txt pa nga with sum smileys pa.hahaha.coolness.how i wish dat he'll txt me sumday without the book issue.hmnnn.fat chance.may gf na nga sya rem?!now im starting to make illusions n nman...hayyyyyyy!!!ok lang.now i can define na the feeling.it's called kilig...*wink=)

ok.he's singing=)

2005-01-03T11:52:00.000-08:00

Grabe 5am pa lang and im awake na.grrrrrr my class’ 7:30.hmmp and the prof?!she’s late!the nerve…it’s good thing di ako agad dumerecho sa room…I made it to have sum tambay and wait for acy in our dorm pa…of course I knew that im gonna see him na for almost three weeks of missing-him-to-death sentiments.haha.im so excited.i heard him singing when I enter the dorm…oh god!his voice!im sooo kilig tlga…=)but sadly I didn’t see him within the whole day.but its okay at least I heard his voice and im contented na that he’s in 2nd floor lang…hehe.yuck!ang babaw. kei lang.maybe this is not may lucky day.maybe tom I might see him na….sigh……just maybe=)

so now i'm a nerd

2005-01-02T09:50:00.000-08:00

Finally I have the guts to go to the ophthalmologist and have my visions checked.okay im sooo clumsy na nga I admit and using contact lens doesn’t suit me (my friends will prove that.hehehe)and I’m really scared wearing eyeglasses.hello manang!men it really sucks!I dnt even know if wearing it would be bagay for me .ayt?!but like I said I hav to.e sino bang mahihirapan?!me,me&me.the result:astigmatism…not that bad I thought of!and so the doctor told me that I hav to wear it all the time for 6 months!as in all the time!hah?!damn that woman!imagine me wearing that dorky thing for a half a year?!as if nman na susundin ko sya.hehe.ill-only-wear-it-when-I-need-it-period!

new year!new soul!

2005-01-01T22:47:00.000-08:00

Why do people need to hav some changes only when the year is starting?new year’s resolution?its not uso for me for the last few years but eventually I realize that I hav to make sum changes too.hav to quit some stuffs I loooove to do.eating sweets,sleeping,drinking sessions….all this things that will make me not welcome to the “slim world”.hayyyy I should lessen my carbs.should play badminton at least once a week.nyek!how can I do this nman if my only available day is Sunday and that day I should make sum rest.nyway I’ll still try.uhmmm I think of trying “after-six” also.who knows this might work for me ayt?!xmas vacation’s over till tom,I find it so bitin,I wanna have sum r&r pa nman for another week coz im so burned out this past holidays….parties,hanging out with friends,drinking sessions.the only good part is I can see my college friends na.cant wait too see them and make some chikahan.hehe.the thought of my prof,quizzes&ass…..grrrrr..it makes me sick!

yeah!!!

2004-12-26T03:45:00.000-08:00

I Fall So Deep
I'm always thinking about youI wonder if you can tell
These things I'm feeling inside meI keep them all to myself
Scared to show my true emotions
Don't want to love alone
Because I fall so deep
You never know how I go
And I know why hearts beat desperately
I fall so deep
Some people think love is foolish
While others think it's a game
I think that love is a fireI'm burning up in your flame
I'm so lost in my emotionWanting you evermore
Because I fall so deep
You never know how far I go
And I know why hearts beat desperately
I fall so deepI fall so deep
And I've come so close to the apart
Where I reveal my heart to you
But I lose my nerve
Can't find the words to tell you that it's true
I fall so deep'Cause I fall so deep
You never knowHow far I goand
I know whyHearts beat desperatelyI fall so deep (until fade)

xmas=(

2004-12-25T03:23:00.000-08:00

its christmas eve and i can feel d cold christmas air,d sounds of christmas songs,d laughter of my little cuzins…and den i thought dat its christmas na tlga!after celebrating d traditional noche buena w/ my family&relatives….foods,gifts,a glass of wine….den dats d tym it all started.d thought of him.im thinkin’ of txtin’ or calling him coz i thought dat theres nothing wrong in doing so coz its christmas anyway.besides i’ve txted all my friends na.i decided to give him a call just to hear his voice.just his voice.after several rings,he finally picked up his fone and oh my god!sounds cheesy but i felt d butterflies in my tummy!people tlga…walang contentment…i even txted him just to greet him a merry christmas.den my fone beeped.my heartbeat’s racing.after exchanging a few txt he got pissed off for sum reasons i don’t know and den the thing i most scared of came…he hav a girlfriend na!hah!d worst christmas day of my life.i felt dat d whole world had crushed on me.d pain was intolerable.d last tym i felt it was d same day me & my ex-bf drifted apart…shallow ayt?!and i dnt even care.wat happened to me?am i really dat sensitive wen it comes to d person i like?i’m so stupid……….every girls dream is to be swept off their feet by their prince charming and maybe mines not coming anymore…maybe luv?!it really wasn’t for me……

paranoia

2004-12-23T21:00:00.000-08:00

i’ve been thinkin’ of him for the whole day.can’t sleep.can’t hardly focus on everything.damn.i miss him badly.and i hate it.i should’ve known that it will all coming.it feels good to care for someone and holdin’ on to dat something that means a lot to me,but i didn’t expect that this would cause me a lot of pain.thinkin’ where he is ryt now,who’s with him ,is he thinkin’ about me too?fat chance.he didn’t even know that i exist.maybe he’shaving fun with somebody else,maybe he thinks she is the right one for him….oh no!!!okay,now i’m being paranoid.but who’s to blame.im inluv but unfortunately,it seems dat the person i luv forgot to luv me back.....=(

geez......

2004-12-20T23:34:00.000-08:00

summer romances end for
all kinds of reasons,but when all said and done,they have one thing in
common.they are shooting stars.a spectacular moment of light in the
heavens.fleeting glimpse of eternity,and in a flash they are
gone......